In between the time I was giving serious consideration to the possibility I was insane for seeing and hearing things in the house and the day I got validation I found I could sense/hear others feelings/emotions on any given day. I started reasearching how this happenes and what the hell causes it.
Funny thing was I found my great-grandmother had the same ability. I also found out that while my mom was preggo with me her grandmother was dying and she allowed her to touch her belly near the time she died. GEE THANKS FOR THAT MOM!!!!! you never let a dying person touch your preggo belly. I tell her that everytime I sense a new entity or something. LOL
You have to remember this was a time that you WERE considered crazy if you told people that, you would be considered a weird, granola eating, vegan, california nut. So, I would spend hours at the book store or libary reading books about ghosts, spirits, esp{which is what I thought it was} Then I came across a school on the east coast who "tested" people for abilities. I sweet talked my grandparents into letting me come visit so I could check it out, and I did.
I wasn't really impressed and when I would make an off handed comment about something they seemed more and more interested and I started feeling like I'd be a prisoner instead of learning how to control/use it. So I beat feet and started going it alone. I read things from Hans Holtzer and people in the paranormal of that time. I read books like "The Ways Of Initiation" by people like Rudolph Steiner. I delved into reading about Tesla and others that belived in the paranormal. I would go to UFO Conventions {I know not so ghosty}I was searching. But a that time there were no real paranormal investigators except Hans Holtzer and various psychics of the day.
I frequented several of the local mystic shops, to read books and learn about stones, potions, uses for common household items that might help control the outbursts that would happen in the house. I met a shaman from one of the local native american tribes and being 1/4 cherokee I couldn't resist his invitation to learn.
He taught me many ways to not only control the outbursts but to use various oils, stones and natural things to tone down the energy. To control/when to just keep my mouth shut where others are concerned. I learned how to shut off the static in my head when I would go to the mall and hear everyone talking at the same time. I learned how to tell the differnece between a spirit just searching for solace and a demon searching for a host. Our house is quite funny now, when the energy starts to ramp up I just verbally threaten to get the sage and you can phyically feel it calm down. That was when I heard the term sensitive.
He taught me how to use stones in clearing an area, to boost energy in places, how to meditate and what stones to use in order to astral project to get answers to questions. I became less erratic about things and learned how to calmly face down a demon, not banish it but to face it head on and never run from the energy. I learned that yes they can harm you but if you meet them head on they can't get a leg up and they become plainly interested in you, as much as you are in them.
And the question{s} is/are.....why are they still here, with the living and others aren't?
Is our modern world creating simple vortexes with our modern electrical items that spirit energy can flux through
and visit? I ask this because I have one of those Homedics sound makers and one day while playing around with it an entity actually appeared when I left it out on the table set to the white noise setting{which just sounds like static}.
Einstein once said that there are many planes of existance. Could one of those planes be a spirit plane and some spirits just have so much kinetic energy that they can not be contained by such a simple thing as another dimension?
These are things I'm still researching, thinking about. I think that as we all get older we start thinking about that more and more, What will happen to me when I die.
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